Today it all hurts. I sometimes forget that there is something I can take and still be functional. Something that will make the pain subside in my head as well as my body. It’s been such a long time coming I forget that it’s here. I have now accepted that functioning is such a  variable state as far as my day goes that at times it’s easy to just sit, waiting for time to pass until I can tske something more to relieve my pain. Ridiculous? Indeed! However, it’s true.

The waiting habit comes from the days nothing worked yet I hoped that if I took my medicine on time, if I did everything right the medications would actually work for me. They didnt. Luckily, I was still up and coming idea person. Otherwise, i do not belived this would of ever got out.